Well I have finally packed my bags and picked up stakes. I made the switch from Wordpress to Blogger. Why? Because I have no intention of doing anything more with blogging other than sharing myself with you.
My deciding factor was that 99.9% of the blogs I read are Blogger ones and I am tired of having to type out the wordpress http:/ everytime. It is so time consuming, that I am lurking instead of commenting. And do you know how many comments actually got lost between Wordpress and Blogger, ugggggg!?!?!?
So for my peace of mind, I decided to join the masses. I am still going to keep A Working Mom's Joy at Wordpress. I have a lot of pics and such that I haven't figured out how to move :( But I was able to copy all of February's posts.
Friday fill ins
February 19, 2009 · 2 Comments
1-3 are courtesy of Mar this week.
And…here we go!
1. Give me money and it will burn a whole in my pocket.
2. Whenever ????.
3. I wish pizza was 0 points.
4. Chicken gizzards was the last thing I ate that was utterly delicious. YUMMMM!
5. To live in this world one must pray.
6. Other than this one, DUTCHbeingME.blogspot.com is the last blog I commented on.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to bible study group, tomorrow my plans include work and shopping and Sunday, I want to go to church and Quaker Steak and Lube for lunch after church!
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“Second verse…same as the first”
February 19, 2009 · No Comments
This is part two of my last post. It was getting kinda long; and if your like me, it is hard to follow a long post to completion when I have little ones running around my feet
You see, after being overweight my whole life, it finally took me getting real with myself to see myself. I didn’t like who I had become. My body was rebelling. It couldn’t carry my 160lb ”twin” anymore.
I tried doing it for me in the past, but the flesh is weak. When I was younger, I wanted to be “pretty and skinny”. I would lose 5-10 lbs and got attention. It was nice and made me feel good; but when the attention stopped, the eating began again, then came the dieting. It became a cycle. It went from 5-10 lbs to 15-20 lbs until it was 50 lbs and there was no way I could lose that by a crash diet! Then the pounds just kept coming on.
So what came next??? Excuses. This was not my fault! I have no control over it. I’m big-boned, my metabolism is slow, my whole family is big, God made me big, Satan is against me and wants me to fail, I have a medical condition (which I didn’t but some people do) etc.,etc. I have used every excused in the book.
After the excuses came, bargaining and anger. Please, please, please God make me skinny. You don’t want to see me suffer. I was created in your image. If you make me skinny, I’ll do anything you want. If you loved me, you would have made me skinny. etc. etc. etc.
Acceptance and lies. These are the worst of the bunch. God made me this way and if you don’t like it that leave. I’m “Phat and Beautiful”. I’m a good looking big girl. I can be big and still be healthy. I can do everything that a skinny person can do. My husband likes me big (which he does) but won’t love me if I loose the weight (big lie). It’s my husband’s fault. If he can eat anything, then so can I. All this weight is from four pregnancies. I just have all this baby weight. etc. etc. etc.
I have had this stinkin’ thinkin’ for my whole life when it came to my weight.
But after having my last baby, this all changed for me. The light switch clicked on. No more excuses, bargains, anger, acceptance or lies. I have three babies and a hubby depending on me to be there for them.
They became my motivation. They are what keeps me going. I couldn’t do this for ME. If I could, it would have been gone years ago. It had to be for THEM. I’m not afraid of death or dying. I’m afraid of abusing this body so much that it ends up in an early grave. If the Lord calls me home now, it won’t be because I “ate” myself to death.
I have gotten real with myself. I have my motivation. I want to be healthy and live this life I have been blessed with fully. Now what?
I am not naive anymore. I am weak and fleshy and not strong enough to toss this weight on my own. What now? Where do I turn? Who do I turn to? Who loves me no matter what size I am? And who wants me to toss this weight more than I do? Who loved me enough to die for me?
I need help and who better to go to than my Lord and Savior. I can’t do this on my own, but I am going to do everything I can with His strength.
(to be con’t)
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HYC/BLBE weigh in
February 17, 2009 · 5 Comments
260 to 257 lbs… Wow, I made it to the 250s. I think the last time I weighed in the 250s, I was 19-20 years old.
As so many others, I think to myself, “How did I let myself get this way?” It is an age old question that I am am sure everyone has thought at one time or another. With that, I pulled out my “fat” pants today and thought, “Oh man, I had a big o’ butt.” (Ever hear the song Baby Got Back, LOL.)
Everyday I’m amazed at things I can do nowadays. I get excited to roll around the floor with the kiddos or sit in a restaurant booth or cross my legs. Speaking of restaurant booths, it was wonderful to not have to wait for a table on Valentine’s Day. I was able to sit in a booth and cross my legs!!!! Can you believe that?!?!
Oh well, This past week has been one of wonderment for me. I even went out and bought a new pair of “skinny” jeans. I’m hoping to be able to wear come March. And I was able to give 4…yes, 4 garbage bags of clothes (hubby gave 2 bags) to Amvets. They were all too big. There was quite a few fairly new pieces. But if it didn’t fit, I wasn’t keeping it!
Another thing I realized this week is I have become a planner. A meal planner to be exact. Take Valentine’s day for example. I ate yogurt/raisins/fiber one for breakfast, 3 points. For lunch, I ate chicken breast and yogurt, 6 pts. That meant for dinner I was able to splurge. I had prime rib, sweet potato w/butter and brown sugar and broccoli. It was delish and worth every point, 22 to be exact.
I’ve always “knew” I had to lose weight. How I could I not?!?! I knew what my body looked like and how I felt, better than anyone else. I also became very good at hiding the extra “junk in the trunk” as best as I could, along with the physical pain I was going through daily. It’s tough carrying an extra person around with you everyday. I was 320, divide that by two, and what do you get? 160!!!! Yep I was carrying my 160 along with another added on top. Tell me you body won’t rebel after long, and I have a snowballs for sell in Jamaica!
I’ve always had the desire to lose the weight. But it took me finally understanding that I might be around long for my family or even worth much for them, if I didn’t make plans and follow those plans through to lose the weight. So, one of the ways I am losing this weight is by planning everything I eat, or what I am going to eat when I won’t have that much control over what is being served. Valentine’s day was a good example for me when I saw that scale move down.
This weeks scripture: Proverbs 20:5 “A plan in the heart of a man is like deep water, But a man of understanding draws it out.”
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February 15, 2009 · 1 Comment
I got emails from my parents!!! Here is the one from my mom:
greetings from Africa. we are safe and god is doing mighty things. pray for a powerful movement of the holy spirit in tonight's last night at the meeting. pray for lives to be saved it is far worse than you can imagine. we love u all so very very much. kiss the babies love love much love mom and gene
Second email from her:
we are well and doing just fine. we will be here at the home for 3 more days and then rest for a couple days. the travel is 7 hours over long dusty roads. quite an adventure. kiss the babies. we love you very much. love mom and gene
This one is from Gene:
sandy cyndi donnie, we are safe, don’t worry, god is good. we love you very much . happy valentines day
love mom and gene
PLEASE, please, please keep them in your prayers.
In place of my Sunday Blessing, I am fervently seeking your prayers.
At church today, we prayed for our Nehemiah mission team. They left during service to go to the airport to fly to Africa. My parents are a part of this team. Yeah, my mom on a missions trip. Those who know my mom know this can only be God’s doing (this woman has bought every bug spray she could find in northeast Oh). They will be gone 2 wks; and in that time, the men will be building an outdoor church and the women will be teaching the children and hygiene to the mothers along with birth spacing. They are also preaching. May God use them mightily.
The place they are going to is war-torn and very destitute. Please keep them in your prayers. Prayer for traveling safety (they will be flying 20 hrs total/3 lay overs) safety in Africa, the men, women and children that they will be ministering to.
Isaiah 6:8 is the scripture that came to me this morning. I wrote them a letter to read on the plane and put this scripture in it. At church, mom said she opened her Bible today, and in prayer, God gave her the Scripture Isaiah 6:8 to meditate on. I gave her a big hug, smile and thanked God for His wonderful confirmation for my heart. I can’t wait for her to read that letter.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” Isaiah 6:8
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February 14, 2009 · 1 Comment
Happy Valentines Day from me to you!
I just love this day. My sappy side comes out. I woke up this morning and say spied a card on his pillow. It brought tears to my eyes. My honey is so sweet but it’s that manly sweet, kwim?
He knew better than to give me any candy, lol. We are going out to dinner tonight with another dear couple. I am just too excited. We even got babysitters for the kiddos. How special is that?
We don’t do babysitters that are not family because I feel bad with leaving 3 little ones for them to take care of. It can be hectic around here. But the couple we are going out with insisted that their girls watch them. So, Mama and dada get sprung tonight!!!
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February 13, 2009 · No Comments
And…here we go! To my hubby
1. It seems like I love you more and more each day.
2. Flush when you’re done, please? (just kidding…I say that to the 3 yr old, lol)3. If I thought you were gonna win in bowling today , I’d would have cheated. Luv ya baby.
4. Your love for me and our kiddos is what I think of most when I think of you.
5. To me, Valentine’s Day means remembering how much you have my heart.
6. You and our Lord give me strength.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to beating you in bowling, tomorrow my plans include a juicy steak dinner with you and Sunday, I want to relax with you.
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February 11, 2009 · No Comments
Pan Fried Fish Dinner: 4 servings 4 points
1 pound(s) flounder fillet(s)
1 tbsp Dijon mustard
1 large egg white(s), whipped until stiff
1/4 cup(s) uncooked yellow cornmeal
2 tbsp grated Parmesan cheese
1 tbsp thyme, fresh, finely minced (or 1 tsp dried thyme)
1/2 tsp table salt, or to taste
1/2 tsp black pepper, freshly ground, or to taste
2 spray(s) olive oil cooking spray (I used canola)
1 tbsp olive oil (I used canola)
1/2 medium lemon(s), cut into 4 wedges
Wash fish; pat dry. Place fish on a plate and spread both sides of fish with mustard; dip into egg white and set aside.
In a medium bowl, combine cornmeal, Parmesan cheese, thyme, salt and pepper; dust fish with cornmeal-mixture, making sure to cover both sides.
Coat a large oven-proof skillet with cooking spray and set over medium to medium-high heat; heat oil until shimmering. Add fish to skillet and cook for 2 to 3 minutes on one side; flip fish and cook until done on other side, about 2 to 3 minutes more.*
Serve fish with lemon wedges. Yields about 3 ounces of fish per serving.
This was so yummy and very easy to make. It is so simple, it only took me 15 min to make.
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HYC/BLBE weigh in
February 10, 2009 · 6 Comments
I am very excited!!!! I have finally reached my first WW goal. I have lost 10% of my body weight! I started WW online October 17th at 290lbs and today I am officially 260. But I am really excited to lose 60 lbs so far since Jan 2008, so technically I have tossed 19% of my body wt.
I have tossed 30 lbs counting points and exercising at least 15 min a day min. For a mom of 3 little ones, I exercise when I can, but I always count my points.
(This chart starts at 282 but my first wk, I was 290)
I am proud of myself. This is the longest that I have stayed focus on being healthy. My family is my motivation. I have to be healthy for them.
Before, I tried to lose the weight on my own, it was a hush hush secret. I never told anybody that I was trying to lose weight. I think the reason why was because I was afraid of failure (again), and my family to know I blew another diet. I have gone on every diet imaginable. I even went to a surgeon and had all the work up done to get gastric bypass surgery. All I had to do was pay the $100 co-pay at the desk after my tests to set up my surgery date. I had my checkbook out but for “some reason” I told the nurse I needed a little more time to think about it. My mom was with me and secretly I think she was torn. She wanted me to lose the wt but not by the surgery route. I was 25yrs old at the time.
Fast forward to three years later. I met my wonderful hubby who thought I looked “hot”, fat rolls and all. After 4 yrs of marriage and 4 pregnancies, it finally clicked that I needed to lose this wt. I wasn’t going to be able to take care of them with all this wt. I am not afraid of death. I welcome it when it is my time destined by God. I am afraid to die and leave my family before my time because I weigh to much. I don’t want people to look over my casket and say, “oh it is a shame she ate herself to death and left her little ones.” Instead, I want them to say, “she had a long life, loving family and was one “hip” granny.”
This wk’s scripture: Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
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Shout out time…
February 7, 2009 · No Comments
I have a very cool site that actually works! I don’t know about you guys, but in my family, I have to make all the phone calls for information, clarification, appointments, etc, etc. No matter how much I try, Hubby refuses to talk on the phone (he says he can’t understand them or won’t talk to a machine). So mama here being resourceful and trying to make the job easier for herself found…Gethuman Database. Yep, no machines for this gal. So far I have called 4 businesses and have spoken with 4 people, go figure. This would be a good one to bookmark.
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A week of firsts…
February 6, 2009 · 2 Comments
I am having a great week so far. First, I’m down back to 262 tossing the .8 lbs I gained recently. I am feeling great, and I am able to wear my “skinny” jeans. Believe me, I am on cloud nine right now.
Second, we went to our first bible study group. It is called Journey group and is a gang of 20 and 30-somethings along with all the kiddos running around. It was a wonderful time of fellowship and food, lol. We had eaten dinner earlier so I wasn’t hungry. I did have half a cookie and a taste of bourbon chicken. I remember thinking, “Wow, no second dinner for me.”
Third, you will never guess what I had!!!!!!! A GIRL”S NIGHT OUT!!!!! I met up with two friends, and we went to Pizza Hut. The girls used to be teachers at the kiddos old daycare. I have to admit, I am the old lady of the group. These girls are so wonderful even though they are 10 years younger than me. LOL. We plan on meeting up once a month and plan a couple of fun events for the families to get together do. I can’t wait.
I never knew what I had been missing. Every mama needs a night out. It was refreshing and a great pick me up even though we talked about our kiddos 90% of the time.
Oh, and I did eat one bread stick and one slice of wheat pizza. They were delish. Mama was very good tonight.
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