2-16-09: 260 to 257 lbs… Wow, I made it to the 250s. I think the last time I weighed in the 250s, I was 19-20 years old. As so many others, I think to myself, “How did I let myself get this way?” It is an age old question that I am am sure everyone has thought at one time or another. With that, I pulled out my “fat” pants today and thought, “Oh man, I had a big o’ butt.” (Ever hear the song Baby Got Back, LOL.)
Everyday I’m amazed at things I can do nowadays. I get excited to roll around the floor with the kiddos or sit in a restaurant booth or cross my legs. Speaking of restaurant booths, it was wonderful to not have to wait for a table on Valentine’s Day. I was able to sit in a booth and cross my legs!!!! Can you believe that?!?!
Oh well, This past week has been one of wonderment for me. I even went out and bought a new pair of “skinny” jeans. I’m hoping to be able to wear come March. And I was able to give 4…yes, 4 garbage bags of clothes (hubby gave 2 bags) to Amvets. They were all too big. There was quite a few fairly new pieces. But if it didn’t fit, I wasn’t keeping it!
Another thing I realized this week is I have become a planner. A meal planner to be exact. Take Valentine’s day for example. I ate yogurt/raisins/fiber one for breakfast, 3 points. For lunch, I ate chicken breast and yogurt, 6 pts. That meant for dinner I was able to splurge. I had prime rib, sweet potato w/butter and brown sugar and broccoli. It was delish and worth every point, 22 to be exact.
I’ve always “knew” I had to lose weight. How I could I not?!?! I knew what my body looked like and how I felt, better than anyone else. I also became very good at hiding the extra “junk in the trunk” as best as I could, along with the physical pain I was going through daily. It’s tough carrying an extra person around with you everyday. I was 320, divide that by two, and what do you get? 160!!!! Yep I was carrying my 160 along with another added on top. Tell me you body won’t rebel after long, and I have a snowballs for sell in Jamaica!
I’ve always had the desire to lose the weight. But it took me finally understanding that I might be around long for my family or even worth much for them, if I didn’t make plans and follow those plans through to lose the weight. So, one of the ways I am losing this weight is by planning everything I eat, or what I am going to eat when I won’t have that much control over what is being served. V alentine’s day was a good example for me when I saw that scale move down.
This weeks scripture: Proverbs 20:5 “A plan in the heart of a man is like deep water, But a man of understanding draws it out.”
2-9-09: I am very excited!!!! I have finally reached my first WW goal. I have lost 10% of my body weight! I started WW online October 17th at 290lbs and today I am officially 260. But I am really excited to lose 60 lbs so far since Jan 2008, so technically I have tossed 19% of my body wt. I have tossed 30 lbs counting points and exercising at least 15 min a day min. For a mom of 3 little ones, I exercise when I can, but I always count my points. I am proud of myself. This is the longest that I have stayed focus on being healthy. My family is my motivation. I have to be healthy for them.
Before, I tried to lose the weight on my own, it was a hush hush secret. I never told anybody that I was trying to lose weight. I think the reason why was because I was afraid of failure (again), and my family to know I blew another diet. I have gone on every diet imaginable. I even went to a surgeon and had all the work up done to get gastric bypass surgery. All I had to do was pay the $100 co-pay at the desk after my tests to set up my surgery date. I had my checkbook out but for “some reason” I told the nurse I needed a little more time to think about it. My mom was with me and secretly I think she was torn. She wanted me to lose the wt but not by the surgery route. I was 25yrs old at the time.
Fast forward to three years later. I met my wonderful hubby who thought I looked “hot”, fat rolls and all. After 4 yrs of marriage and 4 pregnancies, it finally clicked that I needed to lose this wt. I wasn’t going to be able to take care of them with all this wt. I am not afraid of death. I welcome it when it is my time destined by God. I am afraid to die and leave my family before my time because I weigh to much. I don’t want people to look over my casket and say, “oh it is a shame she ate herself to death and left her little ones.” Instead, I want them to say, “she had a long life, loving family and was one “hip” granny.”
This wk’s scripture: Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
2-2-09: 262 to 263 lbs. I had a gain this past week. I totally blame the Steelers for my gain It’s all their fault. They just had to go and win the darn thing. They got me so upset that I just couldn’t help but stuff my face. Okay… I hope ya’ll know I’m just kiddin’
I do have to say that I am proud of myself. The old Sandy would have said “Oh Well… I blew it. Honey, where’s the Doritos.” The new Sandy said tonight, “Honey, watch the kiddos for a while. I want to ride on the bike an extra 30 min tonight.” Man, I like this new Sandy.
This wk’s scripture: Colossians 1:11 “You are being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might, so that you might patiently endure everything with joy…”
Another version: ”…strengthened with all power, according to the might of his glory, for all endurance and perseverance with joy…”
I will endure and persevere with joy during the ups and downs of this healthy journey.
1-26-09: 265 to 262lbs. It still seems a little unreal to be in the 260s soon to be 250s I am down another dress size, too!
I noticed last night at church that I can now put my elbows on my knees and cup my chin in my hands at the SAME TIME!!!! I can’t even remember the last time I did that. I am also able to put a book in my lap and actually be able to read it! Little things like those really tickle me, kwim?
This wks scripture: Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart.”
01/19/09: 268 to 265 lbs. Weight tossed since last weigh in: ….. 3.0 lb. Can I get a “woot, woot” ?!?!? (I warned ya that I was a big dork)
I am sooo excited to toss away 3 lbs this past wk. I have been a very good girl, stayed within my points, rode my bike and drank my water:)
Now, my dilemma of the wk was a little situation that happened over the weekend. I’m not going to go into details, but can you answer me this…Will I always be remembered as “Sandy, the girl who lost 50 lbs”?!?!
I was a little embarrassed to say the least. It wasn’t “Hi, this is Sandy H”. Nooo, it was “HI, this is Sandy who lost a ton of wt and has a ton more to go but she’s getting there”. I thought I was a tough cookie but this kind of comment caught me off guard. I was like, uhm…uhm…uhm. So what did I do? I striked a pose, pasted on a big smile, laughed it off and got out of there as fast as I could.
Oh well, lived and learn, I guess. Anybody have a better way of dealing with the “I was formally a big cow syndrome”? LOL
This made me realize that I want people to see the good inside me and not just what I look like on the outside. Seriously, if I want people to see “me” than I need to stop seeing “myself” as a dress size. No matter what size I am, I am more than just the weight.
This wk’s scripture: Matthew 5:16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
1/12/09: 270 to 268lbs. Why? Hello 260s, my name is Sandy and I plan on staying here for a short time on my way to the 250s and so on…. I know, I’m a dork
At least I’m consistant here is 2009, still losing 2 lbs at a time. Slow and steady wins the race.
A board friend posts her weight every wk and always says tossed instead of lost when talking about her weight. She said I could share it with you all.
“I had been asked why I used “tossed” and “throw” in my weigh ins.I absolutely love this! So from now on I am tossing the weight not losing it. I don’t want to find it again.
Reason: If you use the term “loss/lost”, then that means you are trying to find it.
Looking to regain what you lost. If I use the term “TOSSED”, then that
means that I am throwing it away. I am NOT looking to recover it. It
is gone forever.”
I’m also part of BLBE 2. We are doing teams this time and boy, I am having a blast! A little healthy competition never hurt anybody. I’m very proud to be down 4lbs for my team. Let’s go TEAM ANGIE aka A-TEAM aka ANGIE’S ANGELS (still trying to figure out the team name).
This weeks weigh in scripture: Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 A Time for Everything
1 There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven—2 A time to give birth and a time to die;A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal;A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep and a time to laugh;A time to mourn and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones;A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search and a time to give up as lost;A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart and a time to sew together;A time to be silent and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate;A time for war and a time for peace.
This is my time to be a healthy me.
1/6/09: 272 to 270lbs. Short and sweet weigh in this week. Our family was hit with three passings this first wk:( Thank you for all the support and prayers.
I have been bouncing around the 2 lb for 3 wks but I finally got back to my lowest wt of 270 (doing the happy dance). My new goal for A Healthy You Challenge is another 50lbs in 2009. I want to weigh in at 220 by Christmas.
I’m going to try visiting in blogland this wk when I get a chance. Keep up the good work everyone!
This weeks weigh in scripture: Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.” Mark 10:27