2008-a great year, a new baby and 50lbs lost
Weigh in #16 (HYC # 50)
12-15-08: 272 to 270 lb!!!! Well, there was so much going on this past week, I am over the moon with how well I did wt wise.
1) I just started back to work and so far so good. The kiddos seem to transition well to their babysitter. Mama still sad to say good- bye, but today was much better. Hubby is happy I’m back to work. He has big plans for next pay, lol.
2) I also hinted in my previous post of a big change on my blog. Of course, my BFF figured it out, lol…. I posted a new weight loss badge early and here it is….
Yep, I hit the 50 lb mark. This is the most wt. I have ever lost, and I am so excited to see every one of those pounds go bye-bye. I’m even excited to post a new picture, even though I don’t see much change, I feel it
3) I also lost a total of 20 lbs during Chubby Chick’s Christmas Challenge. Only 5 more lbs to go. Believe me, my fingers are crossed, lol.
4) I actually went to the (((gasp))) gym. I am blessed in that the hospital group I work for built a fitness center on the hospital campus. It is free and for employees only. I was a fish put of water, but I had fun…go figure. I did 30 min cardio and 15 strength training. Worked up a good sweat, I did, lol. I told myself when I lost 50 lbs I would go. So as of this weekend, I had no more excuses (imagine a sheepish smile here). Hubby was very supportive. He had the kiddos watching a Christmas movie, and he was making dinner. I am a blessed woman.
5) I went to a huge Christmas party this past Saturday, and boy oh boy, did I eat some goooood food! I hada plan though… had brunch instead of instead of breakfast and lunch. I made a big salad that looked sooo good that even hubby wanted one. Then I …get this… ATE WHAT EVER I WANTED!!! I just stopped when I was full and didn’t go back into the kitchen for the rest of the night. I used all of my extra pts and it was worth it. I had a fabulous time.
This brings to mind that when Jesus died on the cross, all things were made good, and in moderation, they are good for my body and piece of mind. There is no one food that we are NOT allowed to eat.
As a medical professional, a diet junkie, a wt loss failure, etc… Let me give a piece of advice I’ve learned the hard way… “Be careful following “diets” that start to put a lot of rules (man made rules) on the food you can eat. The flesh wants satisfaction and will go at all costs to get it. Depriving yourself will just set you up for failure”.
Scripture of the wk: Romans14:14, The Lord Jesus has given me the knowledge and conviction that no food is unacceptable in and of itself…
Weigh in #15 (HYC # 49)
12-9-08: 273 to 272 lbs. One pound down this week. I was going to say “only” as in “only a pound”, but these “onlys” have added up to 48 lbs lost. So I’ll take all the “onlys” I can get. They are becoming great friends, lol. This week has been hard for me because I knew I was returning back to work. I havehad a couple issues with returning back to work. One being I’m leaving the kiddos, I loved being home with them these last weeks. Another issue is that I work in Home Care, which means I work from my car with a laptop and treat my patients in their own homes. Meaning all day I pass every fast food joint you can think off. I am the self professed “Queen of Drive-thru”. I challenge anyone trying to take my title, but now I have came too far in this journey to lose it from my car.
Well, God has blessed my family, so much that, I have a wonderful person watching my babies for a couple hrs in the morning before hubby gets home. So, me worrying about leaving them is an easier pill to swallow. Issue one laid to rest.
My other issue, “drive thru/eat greasy burgers in my car” routine did not even pass my mind today. NSV here!!! I drove in 3 towns today, saw six patients, went to the Home Care office, and throughout the day passed about 20 different restaurants. I didn’t even think about stopping at one of them. I didn’t realize it until I got home, was eating dinner and telling hubby how my day went. I packed a lunch last night consisting of ham sandwich (no cheese), two low fat brownies and a jug of water. I want to thank everyone for the words of encouragement/support and your prayers.
So this raises the question for me…can I go on and on everyday and not give in to the temptation of pulling into those drive thrus when I ? I have to remember what God promises…
This wks scripture: Proverbs 3:6, In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your paths.
Weigh in #14 (HYC # 48)
12-2-08: 275 to 273 lbs. Well at least I’m staying pretty consistent, losing 1-2 lbs a wk. A little part of me gets green when I read how some are losing 3,4,5 lbs a week. I have 8lb more pounds to go till Christmas. My mom gave me a dress that I want to be able to wear Christmas Eve. This is a goodness to honest real dress, lol. Meaning there is no “stretch” to it, it goes to my knees, it has a (gasp) zipper and is one piece. I have not worn a dress like that since… well, I just can’t remember when???? I’m sitting here racking my brain but nope, can’t remember… maybe high school, mmmm? Anywho, all my dresses are pull over the head with plenty of Lycra and a jacket to cover up with and oh, down to the ankles of course. I am sure plenty of you know exactly what kind of dress I am talking about.
My focus in this journey has been to be healthy for my family, but a little part of me wants to be able to wear the cute clothes too, kwim? There isn’t a certain size I want to get to. I just want to be a size that I know I can maintain and feel great. Just losing a couple of pounds, I’ve come to realize I lost that desire to keep my self together, to fix my hair and throw some make-up on. Where is the law that if you are overweight, you have to look dumpy too? You can look great at any size. Some of the prettiest women I have ever seen are plus size. They have that attitude of “fat and fabulous”. Well, I want to have the attitude that I will be fabulous when I am in my 270s, 260s, 250s, 240s, 230s, you get the picture.
This wks scripture: Job 40:10 Then dress yourself in majesty and dignity. Clothe yourself in splendor and glory.
Weigh in #13 (HYC # 47)
11-24-08: 277 to 275 lbs. In my previous post, I shared that I reached a personal goal for myself. This is the first actual goal that I have set and seen through to completion. I was watching Amazing Race last night, and I realized how much this wt loss journey is like the show. You have tasks you have to complete like flights and taxis you have to catch (exercise and diet). There are road blocks, detours, fast forwards and pit stops along the way to finishing the race and claiming the prize.
So far, I feel these last 2 months have been just this… the amazing race for Sandy. CC Christmas Challenge has been one of the pit stops. A short term goal along the way to reaching the million dollar prize… a healthy me. I never figured myself as a person that needs goals. I’m kinda laid back, and I go with the flow (a little too much). But I realize, I do need these types of goals. Goals give you motivation, something to strive for. So, I have completed the first pit stop on my amazing (race) journey. I am ready for the next pit stop… 10 more pounds before Christmas. Oh, and on the show, there are second chance legs of the race. So even though I might not reach the next pit stop in time a.k.a 10 lbs BY Christmas, I know when I do get there, I’ll still be able to go on. It will just take me a little longer to reach it, but I will get there.
This wks scripture: Hebrews 12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are surrounded with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us…
Weigh in #12 (HYC # 46)
11-18-08: 277 lbs For the first time, no loss this wk but that is A-Ok. We went on a 5 day trip to visit my hubby’s family and show off Emily. We had a really great time. My BBF, Jen kept me on the straight and narrow. She made wonderful meals that were low-fat and delicious. I got some great pointers from her too. She also stocked up on some WW snacks that ranged from 1-3 pts. The fudge bar and oreo ice cream bars are to die for, and only 1 and 2 pts respectively. The only exercise I got in was a quick walk with hubby in their neighborhood. It felt great, and I actually liked going up the hills. Go figure, at 320 lbs I would have never thought to say that, lol. Anyway, I didn’t worry about my weight and with Jen’s “help”, I didn’t gain 5 lbs on my trip. This got me thinking back to my previous post on how we need people around us to face this giant. People to support us, to cheer us on, to cry with us, and to understand that this is a trial we are going through. I think for many of us, food was that “friend”. The friend that was there when we were lonely, or anxious, or bored, or hurting, or even celebrating. The friend who never talked back, argue or hurt us (little did we know). It is very important to understand that food is not a friend. It is not meant to fulfill any emotion. It is there to sustain this body and only that. I had a friend in high school that understood this even though she didn’t know it, but her body did. We would all go see a movie and after, go to Denny’s restaurant for a “snack”. For many of the group, this snack was a whole meal at 11pm with milkshakes. But for Heather, this was a side salad and a coke. Go figure, a 16 yr old who ordered salad every time. She also had the smallest bill every time, lol. Heather ate to live not live to eat. Food was not her friend, we were.
We need a support system around us to be successful. Otherwise, it is too easy to give up and for many of us, we can’t afford that option anymore.
This wks scripture: Proverbs 17:17 A friend is loving at all times, and becomes a brother (sister) in times of trouble.
Weigh in #11 (HYC # 45)
11-11-08: 279 to 277 lbs. Slow and steady, Slow and steady, Slow and steady… But I want it all gone NOW!!! (LOL) No really, I feel great and see results now. Some of my clothes are getting too big. I’m down to 3 pairs of jeans that fit, almost 2. I have to be cautious and make sure that I don’t get impatient with my progress. I know that slow is best. I know quick wt loss tends to lead back to gain. I loved seeing 10 lbs gone in a week, but I know that this is mostly water wt. I know what the “experts” say. You can’t be overweight and not know. You live with their “findings” everyday. Knowledge is power, but the flesh wants instant results. We have to be on guard against this feeling of “now, now, now.” Instead it has to be “Slow and steady”…
This wks scripture: Proverbs 14:29 He that is patient, is governed with much wisdom: but he that is impatient, exalted his folly.Another translation is: He that is slow to wrath is of great understanding: but he that is hasty of spirit exalteth folly.
Don’t be angry or discouraged with yourself, you are doing great… just take it slow and steady.
Weigh in #10 (HYC # 44)
11-03-08: 281 to 279 lbs. Well… I survived Halloween, and I am proud to say, “There is still a big bowl of candy on the table for the kiddos.” Last year it was all gone by now, and the year before and the year before that, and the year before that, and on and on… you get the picture.
After I weighed myself, I jumped off the scale fast because I didn’t want to jinx it, lol. Only 9 more lbs until I meet my first goal of 275 before Christmas!!The one thought that kept coming to me this week, “What if IT doesn’t work this time?” I have been all over the Internet reading about people that are going through the same thing as me… weight loss. They are so encouraging, and the before and after pictures always make me so hopeful. I even got the gumption to post my own pictures hoping I can encourage someone else. But I am finding more and more blogs that are are not updated, or just forgotten about and that makes me so sad. Did these people forget about their blogs? Did they get bogged down with daily life? Did they get bored with blogging about their life? Or (((GULP))) did they gain back the weight they lost? Did they fail in their eyes? So then me being me becomes very fearful of failure. I desperately don’t want to fail this time around. I need to be healthy and happy for me family. I want to be around to see my grandchildren and so on… But God is merciful and has laid a wonderful word on my heart this wk:
2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Hear are some other translations:For God gave us not a spirit of fearfulness; but of power and love and discipline.For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of self-control.For God has not given us a spirit of cowardice, but of power, and of love, and of wise discretion.For the Spirit which God has given us is not a spirit of cowardice, but one of power and of love and of sound judgement.
I am no longer going to fear failure for God has given me a sound mind, discipline, self-control, wise discretion and sound judgement. Sounds like a great trade off to me2 Timothy 1:7
Weigh in #9 (HYC # 43)
10-28-08: 284 to 281 lbs. This was an up and down week. I started off really well but had to end it sick Not the best way to lose wt, I don’t recommend it. I think hubby and I had the 24 hr flu bug but thankfully the kiddos seem just find.
WW is going great, and I have put in my points faithfully and exercised 4/7 days. I did noticed during this wk that I kept thinking, “I wish losing this wt wasn’t taking so long.” But then I went through my closet on Thursday. That was an eye opener. I went through ALL my clothes. And guess what!!!! They ALL fit. I was as pleased as punch. I even told hubby come next summer I would need new clothes, and he thought that was great! All the maternity clothes went in a bag to give away. I will never have to wear maternity pants again!!! I even had to give away some shirts that were too big. I haven’t done that in years. So if I am doing so great progress wise, why am I so impatient???? Because I am human and fickled, lol. I need to follow apostle Paul and be content. Content with how well I am doing with my progress and at the pace I am going. Losing fast just sets you up for gaining back even faster. Slow is healthy.
This wk’s scripture: Philippians 4:11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
Weigh in #8 (HYC #42)
10-20-08: 290 to 284 lbs. I just want to say bye-bye 300s I pray I never see you again!!!! Other great news is that WW is going great. I won a free 3 month online membership!!! I made a post last wk all about it. On one hand counting pts seems so easy ” a caveman can do it”, but on the other hand something about seeing it in black and white makes it more real. I can’t fool myself. It is so easy to fool yourself into thinking “I am doing okay”. The lie I kept telling myself was that “I can be overweight and healthy.” Just because I was able to have three healthy babies and have no medical conditions right now doesn’t mean I wouldn’t have them down the road. Everything catches up to you sometime. The woman who say “fat is fabulous, big is beautiful, borned big boned, etc… They are lying. I can say that because I have been there and done that. When you are at wits end, you need to believe something positive to make yourself feel good. Unfortunately that “positive” is nothing but deceit. It’s time to stop foolin’ myself.
This wk’s scripture:Isaiah 28:15-16… for we have made a lie our refuge and falsehood our hiding place.” 16 So this is what the Sovereign LORD says: ”See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who trusts will never be dismayed.
Weigh in #7 (HYC #41)10-12-08: The good news is my highest wt with baby was 313lbs which was still 6 lbs under what my highest ever wt was. In 2 1/2 wks, I have lost a ton of baby wt with 75% of it being fluids but hey I’ll take it. Having a baby is really a great way to start losing wt, lol. I weighed myself today and drum-roll please…. I weighed in at 290lbs so we’ll start from here again….
This wk’s scripture: Galatians 5:13 For you have been called to live in freedom- not freedom to satisfy you sinful nature, but freedom to serve one another in love.
This command has been running over and over in my head. I will not live in bondage of this wt anymore.